Lost.

Mood: Contemplative
Music: Last Night I Dreamt That Somebody Loved Me- The Smiths

I don't know how I feel.

I really need to be closer to God... and I feel like I am somewhat but there is one factor working against me: the fact that I smoke. I think I may be addicted. I'm going to try to quit after this pack, but I have said that a lot and it never works out. My great friend Caleb seems to be helping me a little. He has introduced me to a band that has the most profound lyrics about God. I love As Cities Burn, now.

I can't seem to be happy without some sort of subtance anymore, whether if it's caffeine, nicotine, or tobacco. I just need to stop now.